Monday, October 28, 2013

Inside This Suit (Imagine Me) – Folk song (2013)

I could’ve stayed on earth

Could`ve laid on the ground and died like the rest of us
But something pulled me yonder from that place - stole a rocket into space
I leapt from the lander to the new found ground
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The gravity cries for me to come back down
But there’s a lot to think about when your feet are not bound
And I thought of you
Up there
<instrumental pause>
And only hoped that we’d meet again soon
<instrumental pause>
I’d welcome you back to the moon
<instrumental pause>
Inside this suit, imagine me
You will not see my eyes
For in this suit
I’m shielded from
The effervescent sun
My pulse quickens as it hears itself
The beat is a paradox of fear and fire
A runaway heart
<instrumental solo>
The toxic dioxides fill in my lungs
Inside this suit I start to fall – I cannot call for help
My consciousness leaves me as I crash to my knees
The colourless dust is sprung where my body rebounds
<instrumental>
I float like a baby in the womb of the moon
<instrumental>
And only hoped that we’d meet again soon
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And only hoped that we’d meet again soon
<instrumental>
And only hoped that we’d meet again soon
<instrumental>
I’d welcome you back to the moon

Arthroca - Chapter 1, Version 1 (2013)

Hi Ashley! So this is the second draft of the first chapter of a short story piece I've been working on for a while now, but I've been struggling with creating characters, and this has inevitably become a problem. I need to figure out how to make Cody into an anti-hero while keeping him likable enough to intrigue the reader.

It's shaping up to be quite a grim story, filled with the dark side of the human condition and spirituality. Still drafty though, lots of plot holes and grammar issues.

A note for after you read:
The idea behind this piece is that the civil war that is rampant throughout North America gets interrupted by a catastrophe that kills off most of the fighting population. This will have something to do with the sentient spine armour pieces on the back of most of the soldiers' bodies. The main character survives merely because of his reluctance to wear the snake at all times, and the rest of the book is focused on dealing with the death of millions of people because of dangerous experimental technology.

Prologue – Time’s Still Passing
Arizona, August 4th, 2032.
My eyes opened and focused on the puddle forming at my feet. Warm drips fell off my nose, landing in the red sand. Air squealed as it rushed through the lips and into the lungs of the water bottle as I released my grip on it. The splash had awoken me, more so than the increasing amount of noise. I began to compose myself, closing the clip I had been loading with 10-milimeters before I had interrupted myself for a cold shower. The soldiers in the rest of the tent grunted and winced as they added their exo-plates to their arms, legs and head. The organic Velcro fusing and melding to their skin. One scrawny looking man keeled in agony while the cracking and itch of his chest plate incapacitated him, another man caught him as he fell.  They seemed poor, conscripted from some slum in some dustbowl. It was obviously their first time using additive skeleton. They seemed to know each other, by the look of the second man’s smile. Naïve, I thought.

I turned my head to the beating sun piercing the tent canopy, where shadows from outside were being projected. The silhouettes of three horned commandos hastily strolled by the tent throwing sand with the heavy fall of their boots, distinguished only by their medieval looking helm creating nightmarish figures on the yellowed covering. They embarked into what I guessed was one of their signature helicopters – they called them pave-lows – salvaged and modified from derelict military air support which carried out anything from rocketry, explosive gunnery or commando drops.

Shit, they found one, I thought, and took it as a sign to quicken my pace. We were on the move. Most likely a search and rescue, as this was too sudden for anything else. Whipping off my damp shirt, I touched my chest plates to my upper torso. They went to work immediately: forming cancerous cartilage through my numbed flesh and muscle. It fused to my rib cage and pulled itself tight.

I finished fusing my leg plates next because I had a feeling I would need to be able to walk in a couple minutes. The local anesthetic was short, but it’d get you. I called over Dexter to apply my arm protection. He limped over with one of his legs just regaining control.

“I've got ya brotha. Help me with my spine-piece in a minute.” he said, almost tumbling to a kneel.

“Ellie found a horn after we left last night.” I reply with concern as my shoulder lost integrity.

“That’s where she’s ben?” “You know, if it’s one from Alpha. Initiative… There were a lot of skull-heads interested in it, and it’s about time we found one,” I remark as Dexter dropped my arm, swinging it into my metal bed frame before moving to the other.

He nodded slowly and anxiously. “Skull-heads,” he said. “They probably kept her up all night, telling them the details.”

“Mhm” I mumbled. Dex was more worried about Ellie than the M.I.A. count of the Alphas. I was captivated by the stories of the famous quartet, they were celebrities of war and my eagerness to meet them was undying, Art Decker, Paul Ocharo, Vivian Roberts, and Nomad, whose name was still unknown: The Alpha squad. Their endeavours had almost mythical qualities – unbelievable, yet real. It was all there in their mission report, and their results were undeniable. They started making the news early on. Alpha Ocharo, codenamed “Loki” once went rogue, strapping a breaching charge to his squad mate Nomad and threatening to blow him wide open unless mission command gave them intel they were holding out on. The most fucked up thing is that Nomad agreed to the whole thing, connecting the wires himself. Their higher-ups submitted to the demand, but vowed to disband them for the threat as soon as they returned. Alpha responded by never returning. Enigmatic as they were, somewhere out there they were still moving.

The squad was viciously passionate about their operations, willing to die for a higher objective success-rate. They were immortal – icons of order and survival in a stormed world. Then, they went missing, no traces no screams. The other skull-heads, higher-ups, insisted their insubordinate asses had just betrayed their country, fleeing, or joining the Sect. That was complete bullcrap. If that horn belonged to them, they were likely strung up by the Arizona locals or sold to the Sect.

My right arm now had enough strength to pick up Dexter’s spine-piece. A “snake” we called it. It helped absorb spine crushing and ballistic shock shielding. He pulled up his shirt, and I held it against his back. It shuddered to let me know it was upside down. The snakes were computerized, made of organic tissues. Technically they were a new form of life, and therefore had previously faced a UN conference on whether to allow their production. The trial was only halfway through when the president was marked for death. A Sect assassin administered a dart filled with a slow acting paralytic into President Tiril’s neck. He held two speeches before his final breath, one was a slow, inspired, patriotic resignation letter, the other was pained mutterings from an insane man, shut down halfway through because of public distress.

Killing him slowly ensured that his last words were something of a hellish world: fevered, demonic, disturbing to the point that his followers lost hope, got stupid, got angry. So here we were, in our home, fighting recklessly without a leader, to get even with the leader of an ideology. Somewhere in the midst of panic, those amber snakes slipped their decommission and onto the backs of seemingly every fighting man on the planet. Tiril was still alive in a sense. Not an inch of him moved, but something still ticked inside as he watched his country fall apart.

I flipped the snake, and it stopped shuddering. Applying it to Dexter’s spine, it started hissing adjusting. Dexter slouched and his back cracked in several different places. Then his posture jutted upwards, before slouching, and then jutting upwards once again. The snake was waking up, stretching. Dex fell backwards and I caught his head and let him down on the mattress. I fitted his four arm plates before standing and putting my shirt and shoes on. “Thanks Dex” I said.

“Any time,” he said to the upper bunk, before rolling sideways using the momentum from his legs. Dexter almost didn't catch me burying my own snake inside my locker.
“Still livin’ in god’s hands, mate?”

“I don’t want those anywhere near me after I saw that C.P.I. soldier.”
Some poor bastard from the Charlie Primary Initiative came back from an op with most of his clothes burnt off. A majority of his body was unrecognizable, but that fucking snake stood among the mess, holding his spine intact like a trophy. All his other plates were shattered and embedded in him; his inside was a balloon of jelly-like blood. The field medics removed the snake and it all poured out through the slit, and onto the sand, drying into a foul pancake clearly worthy of an honorable discharge. The tough bastard recovered, or so I heard, but sometimes death is a preferable option. He was something of a ghost story among the men of war. A reminder that if this civil war doesn’t end, we’ll all have purple hearts.

“Alright sisters!” Sergeant Reiss yelled through the tent opening, signalling a lot of cracks, clinks and protein bars. “We’re moving in five! Search’n’rescue formation! I don’t want to see any limps outside.”
Ellie walked through the entrance, looking motivated but overworked. Dexter sat up, thudding his plated forehead against the upper bunk. “Looks like everythin’s back to normal,” he said. The thick Scottish bastard didn’t even notice the dent he had made in the crossbar.

Ellie put on a smug smile and shouted in point form. “Alright, I’m boss! Bring your foam! Briefing by the vees! It’s a biggie!” before pivoting and walking straight back outside.

“aaand… There it goes.” I said back to Dexter, picking some foam grenades from my locker. We both started jogging out the door to the Vees while snapping our uniform and vests on.

We made it there first as usual. Dexter pushed a little ahead. “Authoriteh, heh? Who’s horn you find?”
Horns were exoskeleton pieces worn on the helm of higher-ups - generally commandos, to show rank. When one showed up on the ground, it was a sign of distress and queue for a search and rescue. The personalized engravings could identify the identity of the former wearer whom had ripped it off, and the location of said missing commando could be traced by a connection from bio-chips embedded in both the horn, and in the cortex of the soldier.

“Arthro.” Ellie said, as if the name were a movie poster. “I recommended a full mobilization, starting as soon as your lazy asses get out of bed. It’s happening.”

“Heh... Sergeant Reiss’s must be proud of you. Giving orders to skull-heads already,” I said.

“He was fuckin’ jealous, is what he was. Spent the whole night boggin’ down ales, and sayin’ words that nobody called for.” Ellie seemed prideful in her glance, knowing she had hard-assed the hard-ass for once. Sergeant Reiss picked on Ellie since day one, and in their escalating dispute, Ellie took him to the pit – the prom of fighters, for a dance of bruises. The invitation was a blow in itself, but Ellie held her own against him. Ty Reiss was the king for a reason, though. He had her wincing in the sand at the 2-minute mark. They respected each other since that fight, although ‘liking’ is a completely different thing.

The rest of the Delta platoon filtered from every tent, not burning with the same energy as our little trio. Temporary Sergeant and hard-ass Ellie stopped the fuel pump connected to the last of the 5 Humvees and turned around, exclaiming, “We found him!”

“We found Arthro!”

Delta stopped. All 33 of them. Their arms legs and lungs stood still with attentiveness.
Art Dokelend or Arthro was among the first of the experimental exo-soldiers, and by far the most proficient. He was labeled “most wanted” by all sides of the conflict, disbanded, discharged, or dead - one of the three.
“Get into your assigned jeep. We’re pushing through the flattened sector and into the underground. Foam up the road for cover, and plug any holes and flank routes - don’t stop for anything.”

We mounted the vehicles. Me, Ellie and Dex were all in separate vessels. I wasn't feeling in a talking mood, so I fitted my face plates on: chin, cheeks and forehead all went numb. I stared out the window at the uneasy locals. Old dusty foam spanned the bike lanes where roadside conflicts must have arisen. I almost missed the city; it was so unexpectedly similar to a stretch of desert, littered with rocks. Sandstorms had enveloped the creased and crumbled city, smoothing the otherwise jagged rubble. My anaesthetic-ridden jaw dropped slightly as we went over large bump on the pavement. Small glimpses of civil life breached the dried skin of the earth. A white flag, a blue tarp, red stains, a homemade carpet, a hand. “Ffffuck!” I , turning my head and realizing my mouth functioned once more. The Jeep’s inhabitants empathetically swayed their heads to and from me with, pained with understanding.

“Day 46: time’s still passing,” Colin said in his deep and surprisingly aged voice. Colin and I only shared momentary interactions in the time we worked together. He wasn't terribly bright in spirit, but when I wanted a few words to chew on, Colin’s slow and daily remarks were something I could relate to.
He handed me his water bottle, saying “For the nerves.”

I washed down a large mouthful, coughing up a smirk while trying to look civil. It wasn't water. I handed the bottle back nodding as my throat burned, his steely composure was pained and serious beneath his large black sunglasses: an eerie sorrow in a suit of armour. Everybody became sour when nobody was touchable. I suppose that explains a lot of things about Colin, like the way he never replied, but still managed to converse.

The jeeps started to slow in front of a particularly wide street. “Hoo-ah,” we all said, bumping our clips together like wine glasses during a toast.

“Ten.. thirty two.” Colin stated, backing up his first hypothesis. “Time’s still passing,” said Nelson, our driver, jauntily with an entertained grin.

The first pave-low I had seen this morning was now noticeable above the trampled city. Circling, and bobbing at a low altitude, the protruding mini gun pitched and yawed, expelling heat from the muzzles. Three bulky figures stepped from the deck, rotating mid-air gracefully like falling meteors until they slammed back first into the ground with the force of a landmine. The drop created a mask of dust large enough for them to vanish into one of the spotted tunnels to the underground as rounds pelted the once occupied sand.

Silence, for just one… two seconds. The Humvee rolled to a crawling pace in front of the expanse. Six or so locals strolled up from one of the entrances to the underground. “Watch ‘em!” Nelson said urgently.

Taking a second look, one of them had disappeared.

That was when the grenade rolled with pitiful momentum from the empty turret cut out, landing in the middle of all eight of us. We all had the same thought for a split instant. ‘It’s it, or us.’ 
Belting out a series of unintelligible words, we all pushed for the doors. The grenade blew, foam growing at an exponential rate. The vehicle veered off on an angle, before beaching itself in a ditch. We were pressed against the windows as the doors opened, retching six of us from the mess. We lay in the foam as it began to harden in the dry air.  The four other vehicles halted, steering in opposite directions to block the road. Delta Company stumbled out, running towards the grey pile of helpless soldiers I inhabited.

Suddenly, everyone was around us, hitting the ground while fumbling around in their pouches for anything useful.  The hiss of foam blocked out all sound as waist-high cover walled us in. Looking back at the Vee, there was nothing recognizable left. Colin and one other were still in there.

Over the com link, a muffled voice yelled for help. Dex and four others started removing us from the gummy concrete. Ellie signaled to open fire on whoever just ambushed us. Stuck on my belly, I struggled to get a visual while glued to the ground. Exploiting my hardened elbows, I wrenched my way out. I grabbed my gun in an unorthodox fashion and starting pummeling the now plastery substance inside the wreck. Centimeter-thick plates of it chipped away at a time, the wavering voice stopped in probable interest of air.

I thudded the butt of the rifle again and again, bullets homing closer and closer on my location. The clip broke, spilling the rounds I had so carefully loaded in the tent. The scope hinged strangely on the top, and on the sheen of the lens contrasted a crack. The thuds turned to deep cracks, hollow cracks. A hand was now visible. Chiseling around the fingers, the concrete gave way. The arm ripped out of it’s mould, followed by shoulders, a head, a lot more foam, and finally the rest of the body.

Colin was calm as he cleaned off his colourless shell on the ground; he shook it off, both mentally and literally. I noticed him grabbing his sidearm and wondered why he had not stopped to help me, but after I started moving for the wreck again, his face sunk and his head slowly began to shake, the first time he’d emoted anything meaningful. I hesitated, looked at the fully formed foam, and closed the door.
Diving to a crawl, I grabbed the empty magazine and fell behind one of the bulletproof marshmallows. Sliding individual rounds from my vest belt, I guided them into the magazine - the clink of each bullet seemingly louder than the combined gunfire of the warzone around me. Six men had already fallen, either dead or wounded to the Sect combatants, our platoon was down to 29.

Dexter, being a field medic was naturally rolling back and forth from, man to man, checking vitals and fastening bandages. Colin and Ellie were guiding fire to the three pits where the ambushers, Sect it seemed, had been flowing to and from. Efficiently they darted from target to target, communicating with nothing more than hand signals. A dip in the sound of fire meant an advance, Ellie reloaded, tossing her extra foam grenades to Colin and Reiss. They sprinted up the ceasefire quickly, lobbing one live foamer into each underground entrance. Hurrying back, they watched as the plug was sealed. The next set of strategic holes was 50 metres further down the road, and for the time being, were empty.

Looking back and the haunting wreck of the Humvee, I picked up my comm unit and spoke:
“Corporal, I never found out your name, but... I’m sorry this happened to you. This war turns us sour in ways I will never fully understand, and I hope it was just coincidence that we never greeted each other.”
The radio crackled for a brief second, I wasn't expecting a reply. Two familiar faces from the wrecked vee ran over to me, grabbing the comm device and putting it to their ears.

“S-Skipper *hhh* sir,” The radio spoke.
“Kelvin Skipper. Who *hhh* is this?”

The breaths were small and strangely timed - reflexes from a panicked pair of lungs. The two broken soldiers looked at my torn face, before slowly handing the radio back. Taking it, I waveringly replied:
“I s-sat in the… I sat in the vehicle with you… Row behind you, left side,” It’s funny how your brain remembers these things. There was a pause for a few long seconds.

“*hhh* You *hhh* swore at something outside the window *hhh* 2 minutes before we arrived?”

“Y-yeah, that was me.”

Silence, again. Colin approached, dropping his post to join the spectators.

“Tell them to stop *hhh* please.”

Puzzled, the others and I looked at the wreck. Dexter and one other man were taking crowbars to the rugged plaster shell of Skipper’s prison. I looked at the skinniest of the three men in front of me who I recognized as the scrawny man keeled in pain earlier. “You... Sam is it?” I looked at the tape on his uniform to confirm. “Get those two to stop. Please.”

“If I *hhh* am going to die, *hhh* I’d like to die quietly.”

Composing myself vocally, I thought for a second. “Kelvin, hold in there. If you have any last words, now is the time…”

There was a deathly silence over the comm channel. Ellie had stopped giving orders and was sitting against a foam wall with her headset clasped in her hands, listening in. Dex and approximately 10 others had now joined the audience as well. 20 seconds had pissed away. The radio had flickered static on and off, but no words had been said. Then the silence was broken with a faded statement. “You never *hh* told me your *hh* name.”

I looked up, for an instant at all the invested faces: Dexter bloodied, Ellie wavering, Colin with his sunglasses over his heart - head in a bow - eyes shut tight in prayer. I was sure all 29 sets of ears were listening somehow, through some channel, on some device.

“Cody DeCasse” I said inaudibly, looking at my squad standing above and around me, and then to Dexter. Dex shook his head back, confusing me with his intentions. Nervously I raised one of my eyebrows, beckoning him to expand on the gesture. He said in his most un-easing comforting Scottish accent: “You can tell em your real name, brotha. We’re all family now.”

“Cody *hh* who? *hh*”

I nodded at Dexter, and returned to the transceiver, saying “Cody Dokelend.”

“ your… dad? *sh*” Skipper slowly asked.

“Yes... I’m here to get him out. I was drafted by whatever government is left these days. Nobody else could coax him back home.” I said firmly.

One Mississippi, Two Mississippi, Three Mississippi…

 “*sh* … The sins *sh* of our fathers, *sh* I guess. *hhhp*” He gasped, before going offline into complete static. He was gone, disconnected his link somehow.

“Yeah. I... I guess so.” I said quietly, letting the radio down by my knees. There was mumbling from every angle. I wiped my eyes with my raw inner arm, and stood, shaken in the face of my squad. Colin’s eyes were wide open.